It is uncomfortable to start blogging on a site that has been dormant for over two years, but I have a strange aversion to starting brand new internet projects for the sake of my own focus. It seems wasteful. I know how many half-finished or half-started websites there are out there. They bother me.
Besides, the intent of the original blog here is not all that different from my intent as I write today. How could it be? My new ideas belong to me as much as the old ones did. However, where this place was intended to be centered mostly around the activities of our children and homeschool (driven by our faith), I would now like to break away from the limits of such a focus and just blog.
I have been mulling over the decision to start blogging again for some weeks and especially since watching a YouTube talk by Fr. John Hollowell on Being a Digital Catholic. I realized that I never lost the desire to blog, but had instead lost the courage.
It is easy to relay little anecdotes about the kids or to document home-improvement projects (other blog... long story), but I kept running out of material. Not because the kids ceased to be amusing or because our house stopped falling apart, but because I could not find the motivation to write only about such things as my faith deepened. There was so much more going on in my life - in our lives - and in the world that I wanted to write about. But I didn't. I didn't write about it because it wasn't safe.
I have an extreme fear of criticism. I know, I know... No one enjoys being criticized, but this is bigger than that. I think. I may simply be paranoid. Someone out there may be thinking that right now as a matter of fact: "This chick is paranoid." I hope no one decides to point it out in the combox. See? I'm already spiraling into a panic attack. *deep breaths*
Fears aside (still there, but aside), I will be blogging again. About... stuff... and everything: About being Catholic in a mostly non-Catholic area where even the Catholics don't know what it means to be Catholic. I'll probably make some people angry. (Please forgive me - I love you.) About my own discoveries and revelations. About the trials of raising children Catholic in a world where there is absolutely nothing tangible to back up my claims. ("Okay, I know the priest doesn't genuflect before the tabernacle and I know they literally move the altar out of the way for the Christmas pageant, but I'm telling you... Christ is truly present...") And, yes, about homeschooling and home-improvement projects, too.
I hope my continued presence here on Blogger serves as inspiration for others (with more important things to say) to take the plunge into Catholic blogging. Such blogs have been instrumental in my late formation in the Catholic faith. Knowing that there are others out there who simply believe can be the help you need to get you through some real darkness.
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